So, since I didn’t post my blog for our third monthsary…. I’ll post this shit.
Incase you are reading this, hi baby…. HAHAHA I am begging you to stop reading this. Because matatawa ka and maiiyak ka. This is gonna be so fucking madrama and all. So first of all, I’m sorry for the past month. Fuck that shit. If I could just turn back time, I would. No really. I hope you are aware that I haven’t “fully” forgave myself because of that incident. I am so thankful that you gave me a second chance. I know I may not be worth it anymore, but thank you so much. I’m doing my best to prove to you that I still am worth it. Thank you for understanding me, and I’m sorry if the reason why I did that is…. “Di ko alam” Pero siguro kung ginusto ko yun, which di ko talaga ginusto, sasabihin ko naman sayo na ginsuto ko e. Pero di talaga e. Kahit magisip ako ng reason kung bakit…. mabibigay ko lang sayo is “I don’t know, I never wanted that shit to happen but it did and I really am sorry.” I don’t know how or if you still do believe every word I tell you. Well honestly, I am ashamed of myself. You calling me worth it and perfect? It makes me want to hide under a rock because you know naman that, that isn’t true. I would really like to say I’m sorry… for fucking things up. I always fuck up, I’m sorry. Never ever think that it’s your fault, okay? You just really loved a fucked up person. Just please don’t get tired of me.
The past four months… Hay the best talaga, scratch the shit out, I swear. When we were still “bff&e’s” somewhere between the jokes, laughter, conversations, and etc… somewhere between that, i fell for you. Well I know naman that you know na since, idk when tho but alam ko third year, in love na ako sayo. To be honest, I never saw this coming. Me and you, together. I’ve accepted the fact na kasi before na forever na kayo ni Clarice. Like kahit anong mangyari, sobrang strong niyo. And dun ko natanggap na, okay hanggang crush lang ako… HAHAHAHA seryoso, never ko talagang inexpect pero dinaydream oo?… Yuck patay na patay sayo. Luh sige, magkwekwento nalang ako. Joke. Ayun, thank you so much for everything. Falling for you was the best thing ever. People are asking me, why you? Isn’t it supposed to be… “Cj, why Mimyka?” You know what, I’m the luckiest girl alive. Because I have you, and I know you’re mine. (Well, I hope so! Bitches better back off) Every time I’m with you, I just feel so elated. I can be weird around you, and that’s really great. Get it? No awkwardness and stuff like that. Now that I have you, for the second time around, I won’t do anything that would hurt you again and lose you again. Thank you so much for accepting me, and my QWERTYUIKVCXASDFGHJK past. Maybe if I had you that time, my past rn aint gonna exist but you know what they say…. Everything happens for a reason. And it’s great cause God or whoever you want made a way for us. I mean, yeah. So I will really keep you, I don’t wanna lose you. You know that. You’re an amazeballs person, and your balls are amazing too. And I’m kidding, you’re amazing my love. I may have fucked things up, but I promise you I’m gonna change for you. I mean, I am changing na naman. I just hope you don’t get tired and bored of me. That would be the worst day of my life baby, you know that. I really cannot afford to lose you, Cj. I love you so much. I love your sense of humour, its very attracting! I love your weirdness, I love your dance moves, I love your lips, your eyes, your cheeks, your pits, your dick. Oops, hahahaha. Fuck it. I love everything about you. Kahit moody ka minsan, kahit kupal ka, kahit sobrang tigas ng ulo mo, kahit ilang beses na akong nagbibigay ng clue na nagseselos ako wala dedma ka paren hay. Pero okay lang yun, I’m trying my best not to be the oh-so-jealous-gf-type. Hihihi. Anyways, I love you as a whole. You’re fucking handsome, I love you my chinito jerowin. Hahaha. Dude, you’re perfect for me. And I don’t want anyone else to know how amazing you are cause I’m afraid they’d fall for you too. Yeah, you’re amazing. So easy to love and mabilis kasi talagang mafall sayo bwiset ka. Ayun lang, yoko na cheesy na and drama na puta. I love you so much, and I want to thank the person up there for giving you to me. I will take care of you, and I will value you with all my heart. Huwew. #cheesy HAHAHA de, sobrang thankful ako sakanya. The best ka talaga Cj. Kasing da best mo si God, pero mas da best siya. Gets? Sobrang da best siya kasi ginawa ka niya. Hay, please don’t get bored, tired of me. I love you so much words can’t even express how in love I am with you. I love you and I am in love with you. Happy fourth, Jerowin! I love you so much Dy! Hihihihi